My Boudoir Experience | Girl you CAN do it!
*DISCLAIMER* If you're a negative-nelly or do not support boudoir photography and self confidence this is not the post for you. Just click out before you leave negative feedback.
I know that this is a long awaited blog post BUT this is kind of a big deal for me! As if the session wasn't a big enough step out of my comfort zone putting them on the INTERNET?! You've got to understand my hesitation.
But... this isn't about me. It's about you!
I'm going to be honest with you - I am not known to be a self love and body acceptance advocate. It's just not who I am. I have struggled with myself for as far back as I can remember. And as I sit here in my yoga pants and tank top with a messy bun on my head I'm not really feeling the self love talk right now.
But I think you need to hear about this. Yes you, girl on the couch scrolling through her phone thinking maybe one day 25 lbs from now I can do a boudoir shoot.
I was very intrigued by Boudoir photography because I want other women to feel good about themselves. I want to tell you how beautiful you are so many times that maybe after I say it 100 times you will believe me! And when you see yourself in lingerie looking finneeee you will see it too!
Before asking someone else to get half naked in front of a professional camera I decided I needed to do it first - to really understand what my clients are feeling. Let me tell you it was not easy! Lisa was so very sweet and kept me very calm and comfortable. But what is not easy is not picking yourself apart the entire time. "Oh you don't want that angle thats not my good side, you sure you want me to sit like that?, my arm looks so fat like this"... the negative self talk goes on and on and on in my head -but I never said these things out loud.
When she showed me an image on the back of her camera - like woah.. Is that me?
I'm not going to lie and be like oh after that I've loved my body ever sense! No. That's not what happened. But it put me at ease for the whole rest of the week!
When I got my gallery back I was in shock! I loved the way I looked and had not seen myself as a sexual being since way before my daughter was born. I'm sorry if this is to raw for you.. but I'm being honest.
While shooting boudoir there is an open line of communication. We work around those spots you're most self conscious about. With lots of education I've learned so many different ways to flatter the body. No matter what kind of shape you're in or how you're feeling that day.. I'm here to coach you through it all ; to compliment you non-stop and make you feel how you look!
Now the moral of the story is.. I didn't wait 3 months and try to lose 25lbs. I didn't want to do that. I don't want you to do that. It's ALL in your head. When you see yourself looking so good through lens you're like hot damn! Maybe I am hot?! Who knew?!
Whenever I've had a bad week or month feeling really down and hard on myself. Feeling bloated and ugly - I look at my album or send a photo to my husband and BAM instant confidence boost!
So I encourage you - person who is reading this if you've been thinking about boudoir.. DO IT!
It's so much fun and getting to see yourself in a different light is so life changing.
I knew I couldn't write this without including some of my own photos so here they are. Putting my half naked self on the internet for the whole world to see forever. Don't worry I left all the scandalous ones out - you're welcome!
*obviously I didn't take my own photos*